“I tried so hard and got so far
There’s a hush before every factory whistle, every Slack notification, every Friday chart dump: a fractional second when the universe still belongs to nobody. Silence. Peace. Then the klaxon coughs, the dashboards refresh, and the machine resumes—patient, omnivorous, mercilessly polite.
We built it from cotton gins and coal dust, greased it with colonial loot, upgraded the firmware with management theory, named the newest patch Platform Capitalism v10.27. Now it hums inside our pockets and dreams. An empire of extraction looking eerily like progress.
1 | start-up
1804: the first power loom in Vienna replaces seventy weavers. 1971: Nixon unhooks the dollar from gold and the global flywheel spins without friction. 2025: your smartwatch sells your heart‑rate variability to an ad‑tech broker before you’ve finished your morning breath‑work. Different centuries, same hunger: turn life into surplus, surplus into dividends.
Meanwhile, the bottom 50 percent of humanity owns 2 percent of global wealth—a permanent half priced out of their own future. The emptiness machine is efficient precisely because it expands without paying full price.
And why do we tighten its bolts? Because scarcity is programmed into the firmware: compete or be ejected into the data‑void.
“Don’t know what’s worth fighting for
2 | inventory
Here the story of Chester Bennington enters—not as solo protagonist but as exhibit A. His childhood scars fermented into Hybrid Theory, the best‑selling debut record of the 21st century. Overnight, an intensely personal howl became a quarterly revenue stream for Warner Music. Every scream was logged, licensed, monetized, shipped on plastic and later streamed in compressed packets through the very headphones assembled by under‑paid workers in Bangladesh.
Chester’s tragedy is not only that he succumbed to the dark on 20 July 2017, but that the dark was repurposed—packaged—and resold to millions of millennial teenagers as catharsis on demand. Pain as product, grief as growth metric. The man spoke the truth and nothing but the truth. He was replaced, and the show goes on.
Yet this is not unique. The machine takes your favorite indie zine, your late‑night confessional tweet, your grandmother’s soup recipe on TikTok, and converts them into glossy billboards for sneakers you can’t afford. Culture is the lubricant—keeps the pistons from screaming.
“I’ve put my trust in you
3 | dashboards
The office might have collapsed into remote rectangles, but the conveyor is longer than ever. OKRs, KPIs, monthly active users—numbers so sharp they slice nuance clean off the bone. Walk into any start‑up stand‑up and feel the tension: we must grow 22 percent QoQ or the funding cliff arrives. Someone suggests adding a “frictionless” nudge‑loop; someone else wonders aloud whether nudge is just a friendly synonym for coercion. No one lingers on the thought. Lunch & Learn in five.
Psychologists now track something called continuous partial attention. The average worker toggles windows 566 times per day. The emptiness machine adores this jitter: each micro‑shift is another data‑point, another targeted ping, another atom of attention rendered into shareholder value.
Why do we keep clicking? Because the loop is easier than facing the quiet; because the next notification might be the lifeline; because everybody else is still on the treadmill and jumping off alone looks a lot like poverty.
4 | feedstock
Carbon parts per million: 428. Average Austrian rent increase since 2000: 104 percent. Gig‑workers classified as “self‑employed” in order to dodge labor law: 70 million across the EU. Each statistic is a tooth on the cog, and each rotation grinds another sliver of possibility into dust.
We say innovation but mean outsourcing. We say flexibility but mean disposable. The machine keeps its promises—just not to us.
“These wounds, they will not heal
5 | edges
Why can’t we stop? Because entire lifetimes are mortgaged to the rhythm; because debt and desire form a tidy double‑helix; because “doing nothing” sounds suspiciously like surrender in a civilization that crowns exhaustion as virtue.
But look closer: there are hairline cracks.
2024 saw 480 million strike‑days globally—the highest since 1981.
Mutual‑aid pods bloomed during the pandemic and never fully withered.
Open‑source AI models leak daily, hinting at common rather than corporate futures.
Every pause, every walk‑out, every unscheduled lull in productivity is a tiny sabotage, a brief rediscovery of the unclaimed second before the whistle blows.
I’m not preaching revolution; I’m describing physics. Nothing spins forever without maintenance, and maintenance requires belief. What happens when belief becomes the scarcity?
negative space
After the last encore, stadium lights warm the dust rising from empty seats. You can almost hear the air settling—an acoustic shadow of a million throats that once sang in spite of everything.
“In the end
Maybe the end is not collapse but collapse of meaning—and maybe that’s survivable. Maybe our task is simply to widen that hush before the whistle, to carve an interval large enough for un‑monetized breath.
“I only wanted to be part of something
Anything meaningful at all, God fucking dammit.
The machine will notice, of course. It will whir louder, hungry for the surplus minutes we withhold. Let it starve a little. Let silence accumulate like interest owed to ourselves.
When someone asks why do you do this?—answer with the quiet. It might be the most radical lyric left.
Why do we do all this, indeed?
We all fell for the promise of the emptiness machine.
Disclaimer: Mind-altering substances should be legal.
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Antonio
A lot of truth packed into your work
This brought to mind the tale of "Bartleby the Scrivener," which embodies the essence of polite passive resistance. Imagine a world where we all embrace the phrase "I would prefer not to" as our guiding mantra, using it as a gentle shield against the relentless demands of daily life. In doing so, we assert our boundaries with grace, allowing a quiet strength to flourish in our interactions.